*~♥Łąďỷ V♥~*

Wow, this is so crazy that I am back to this site again....Brings back memories, of what my life once was, and what it now is.  So much has changed?  Where do I begin???

 

Okay, Well, most of you know me as being a military wife....Married to a man in the United States Air Force, 2 kids.  When I started blogging, Brian was deployed overseas to help fight the war on terror.  That would actually be his last deployment because he was put on a medical hold and could no longer deploy. 

 

That was in 2005.

 

Fast forward to 2006....We built a house, not far from the base.  We moved in in August of 2006.  Life to me was great....Married, 2 kids, home owners, we even had a dog and a cat as most of you remember...

 

August 2007-Brian and I separated.....He moved out, and filed for divorce.

 

February 14th...Valentine's Day of all days...Our divorce was final.

 

And so life goes on, and never skips a beat.

 

I'm not going to lie, the last year was HELL...I didn't know whether I was coming or going.  I didn't even know how I would function.  I felt like I lost my idenity.  No longer was I his wife.  No longer did I haver a partner.  I felt like I failed.  I felt like I lost EVERYTHING....

 

Boy am I glad I didn't believe that LIE!!!! 

 

I have learned, although divorced, I'm not broken.  Although my heart was shattered into a million peices, I was still able to put it back together again.  I would wake up, go about my day, thinking, "When is it going to get better?"  I answered that rather quickly with..."When ever I allow it to be!!!!"

 

We sold the house, and I got MY OWN Place.  I am FINALLY graduating with my Bachelors degree in May of 09.  I have found a whole new network of friends.  Most of all, I became the one person I always wanted to be....A STRONG WOMAN.  For the first time in years, I am getting to know ME for who I am.  I lost my idenity when I was married.  I was HIS wife....I did everything I could for HIM, in the meantime, was dying inside because I felt I didn't know who I was anymore.  Although it was his choice to leave, he did me a favor.  No longer do I have to worry about him hurting me.  No longer do I have to live the life as this person who was always trying to please someone else.  I am now living my life, the way I want to.  Doing what I want to, for me and for my kids.  My boys have been my source of strength.  I look at them and think, they deserve a mom who has it together, not someone who is going to let something like this destroy me!!! 

 

I've grown up, in so many ways.  I never, in a million years thought I would be starting my life over again at 35.  But as my title says, Life NEVER skips a beat.  It keeps on going.  Either I was going to let what happen destroy me, or keep going. 

 

And yes, I'm still going!!!

 

I'm Strong.  I am who I am and no one will ever take that from me again!  I won't allow it!!!

 

Thanks for reading!!! 

 

~*C